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i am sitting here in the library of OCU realizing a few things..
1) i think i am getting sick. there is this gross feeling in my throat which is like acidic and a bit gnarly tasting. especially when i swallow. hmm, i hope that clears up soon.
2) i have a massive paper i need to write by tomorrow, however there is basically NO. TIME. to do it.
3) i have drama practice at 11 pm tonight. enough said. :/
4) i really think God is so beautiful. I am glad he made the world. trees, water, people, animals… everything.
5) i wish i could see light because he had surgery on one eye to repair his vision and i just want to be able to see his excitement.. and joy.. wow. i love his heart.
6) i miss toledo. i miss the union. i miss being able to sit somewhere and not know anyone around. that is nice…
7) not texting is really hard
my post yesterday really had nothing to do with being mad at what i posted, i was mad about other things.. but that just enhightened my anger.
I am currently working right now. well, i guess you could say i am officially off now, however, i am still sitting at my desk because i realize that i never write on here, and i want someone to hear about my life, since nobody ever knows what’s doing on with me.
school here is so different from Toledo, which isn’t bad nor is it good. it’s just… different. i have class tuesday-friday (yeah, i definately am completely thrown off because of the whole no school on FRIDAYs at Toledo.. haha), i have chapel on tuesdays, wednesdays and fridays. yeah, i go to church while i am at school?? it’s really cool though. i always love chapel time.
as of late, i realized what a big deal me leaving Toledo was. i lost so many credits in transferring because they simply couldn’t fit them in the curriculum here.. which is a big bummer. I find myself questioning school at all moments of my day. whether it’s when i am eating, sitting in class, reading my bible… MY BRAIN WORKS ENTIRELY TOO WELL! so, due to this disappointing fact about my credits and such, i am considering some different options regarding school. they are as follows:
1) return to Toledo, possibly in the summer.
2) go to another school
3) suck it up and deal with feeling like i wasted time.
honestly, i wish running away were an option. HAHA but obviously that isn’t very realistic. SO! This is is the plan stan. I am going to have Toledo as my safety school, meaning, I KNOW i can go back there and not worry about this transferring, except for a few classes here at OCU. While know this, I am going to see how many credits I can fight for to fit in here at OCU, and I am reapplying to Toledo. ALSO!! I am sending my application into a few other schools such as : Wright State, Capital, Otterbein and maybe OSU. I am considering a few things while searching for these other schools.. 1)theatre 2) the psychology program 3)locality of the school to my home here in circleville.
SO. we will see what happens. I am sure you will be eagerly awaiting. feel free to drop any advice 
and now, another topic. I miss God. Jake and i broke up last sunday due, in part, to this fact. I definately feel like God can use this time, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t upset me a bit to realize that the person I love is struggling with life and God right now.. and I CAN’T be there to help.. 
other than that, i work at Kroger Pharmacy (aka HELL) still on Saturday’s and Sunday’s. Also– i am working, here, in the admissions office on campus as OCU. it’s really great and i love the people i work with! they are so awesome, so praise God!!! I am enjoying my classes.. i mean, come on! I learn about God and His Word every day.. so that rocks, in my book!
and that’s about it. i promise to try and post more often
if you are reading this, i am sure i miss you. so give yourself a big hug and imagine me almost crying and telling you how much you mean to me!
God Bless.
