As of late, I have come to the conclusion that my brain works exceptionally TOO WELL!

Signs of this include:

  • I think about things like the fact that Americans spend $450,000,000,000 on Christmas and it would only take about $10,000,000,000 to solve the clean water crisis AROUND THE FRICKIN’ WORLD!!
  • I continually LIST, in my head or on paper on on several papers or post-its, things I need to do for school or life in general. Somehow, I still manage to list things in my mind such as things I plan to do when the break starts, but Honestly, that list should just be scratched out because I think all i need to do is take a mental vacation.
  • I get so lost in thought when I am driving that I often forget where I was going.
  • I tend to forget what tv show I am watching because I am thinking about something like ‘oh, i should really listen to this podcast!’ or ‘now, where is my i-pod?’
  • I think more than I talk, which is INSANE in and of itself.

Basically, I have a thinking/listing/organizing/fixing DISORDER.

I think it’s ok, but it certainly doesn’t help that I almost cry at any instant because I begin to think of the many sorrows my family/friends are having in their lives. I know that God doesn’t want us to think we can fix everything, because in all actually, WE are not the one’s fixing anything. I just feel like I am in the middle of the ocean all alone trying to scream but the water keeps coming in my mouth like the time I went on a neardeath snorkleing trip in the Dominican…

moving on… frankly, as of late, I am a bit overwhelmed. not necessarily in a BAD WAY. but i am, indeed, overwhelmed.

this comes from several different things, many of which i will refrain from having you have to suffer from thinking about yourself, but some are just not bad at all.  For instance, I am incredibly overwhelmed by the person God has molded me into thus far. I am completely in awe of the things He has done in my life and the mere fact that I am alive, just points to God seeing as i KNOW i should not be here right now.

anyways, that’s all i have for right now….

forest

yeah, i wish i could be there…