i’m sure it’s about time i CARPE DIEM!

ok ok ok, i know, CLICHE! i don’t give a darn my friend.. it’s true. i need to quit dwelling on the sadness of the world and realize that our Lord is in control of it…i mean, YES, we should care, and i fully believe we should care enough that it breaks our hearts, but there comes a point where enough if enough and you have to realize you are BLESSED to have this life, and you need to start LIVING it, because others can’t.. and God wouldn’t want you sitting there crying like a baby all the time… he wants you OUT AND ABOUT!! and raising some eyebrows i excitement!!!!

ok, enough of sounding like a motivational speaker. MOVING ON!

i just listened to some amazing songs that broke my heart with happiness. Go listen to them as well: “‘Til kingdom come” — COLDPLAY    and “1,2,3,4″–Plain White T’s… they will change your life. oh, and if you aren’t a quintessential hopeless romantic, you may not like them. but, newsflash!, i AM. so i adore them.

also– today i realized that i take things for granted. i take my time for granted. i take my friends for granted. HECK, i take God for granted. i need to stop this. this is not something i should do… hence, the title of this blog being what it is. it’s about time i start living my life and realizing we are only here for a short visit, we better start getting pumped and seeing God in all we do.. or it’s worthless.

i was listening to a podcast sermon the other day about Caleb. now, i don’t know if you know, but Calab is da’ bomb.. fo sho’!  The author of Jeremiah describe Caleb of living WHOLEHEARTEDLY for Christ. Even Caleb said it about himself (but, come on, you KNOW you wouldn’t most likely say that about yourself.. God would most likely strike you down with lightning right in your pj’s for thinking it..hah!)  Moses, Caleb’s kind of BFF and mentor even described Caleb as living WHOLEHEARTEDLY for Christ…

now, guys. if that weren’t enough recognition, GOD HIMSELF even said that Caleb lived WHOLEHEARTEDLY for Christ.. HOW STINKIN’COOL?!  i am just astonished. At the same time, i was like, “well, i am SURE Caleb was just tight with God, you know?”  and he most likely was, but honestly.. God just saw Caleb and his HEART for Christ..

this got me thinking… i’m not sure, buuuttt, guysssss. i think we are supposed to be living like this. What would it look like if people would tell other people about me and use words like “passionate” and “WHOLEHEARTEDLY following Christ” ??? pretty awesome possum…

SO! this is what i am going to do.. and have been trying to do for about a year or so.. i not only want to live this way for Christ’s sake… but i NEED to, or nothing will happen in my life. i cannot do anything without Christ.  i think my brain needs to grasp this a little more.

ok. i’m tired.    night

oh, just at Beaner’s

well,  i guess i should be studying, however, that has yet to happen thus far today…

INSTEAD: i have been doing several, nonproductive, things…

1. facebooking (i think this can be a verb now?)
2. looking at pictures on my laptop
3. laughing at stupid ’stuff on cats’ photos
4. reading other people’s blogs
5. listening to music
6. thinking about studying, but, again, not doing so…
7. making lists in my head of things i need to do, but not wanting to do them…
8. thinking about all the things i enjoy as of late.

so see, i haven’t been up to NOTHING, i have been quite busy… or rather my brain has been going nonstop.

 i got a paper back today in my news writing class, and i’m ticked off about it. I thought it was a total A paper, but SOMEHOW i only got a B on it… which now has my grade as a B+ going into the final… nevertheless, my fries are totally cheezed by this fact. but hey, at least i am done with that class. F O R E V A    B A B Y!

moving on, i am a bit angered at school. we have basically not been on speaking terms all semester, but now i am just really fed up. it takes up so much of my life. and i had a sudden realization that i still have like, what, 5-6 more years left??   so pumped about that…   it’s so weird. i really DO love school, but i just haven’t been feeling it as of late, or rather, the whole semester. maybe it’s because i am taking classes that are not really want i need/want to be taking any ways?? most likely. pff, you can’t win them all.

also– i am a bit impressed by the personality tests i took today. According to the Meyer Briggs Personality Test i am an ENFJ.  To those of you NOT interested, please stop reading now… but anyhow, this means i am an Extroverted Intuitive Feeling Judgemental person.  Luckily Jolie set me straight that the last part does not mean i am judgemental haha. thanks jol!    

here are some things this personality test said about me:

ENFJ children want life to be friendly, harmonious, and lively. They are responsible children because they like to please others and meet their needs. In doing for others, they usually find satisfaction for themselves. They are upset by conflict or disharmony. They are pleasant, exuberant and talkative.

ENFJ teenagers are constantly on the go, participating in many, many things. They enjoy a wide variety of activities, not only for that variety but also for the action and opportunity to be with others. They love being involved with friends, clubs, and any activities that let them be with others. ENFJs are often voted most congenial or nicest person in their class. Additionally, they may serve as leaders in their school activities. As students, they are able to focus on the interpersonal spirit or nature of the school and to speak eloquently to others about the school’s best values. ENFJs are likable because they notice what is good about people.

As young adults, ENFJs set goals early on, both in the personal and professional realms. They follow through diligently and usually attain what they seek. Often the goals they set have to do with making society a better place for people. ENFJs may sometimes feel pulled between financial gain and spiritual gain.

Many ENFJs take their religious and community values seriously and want others to do the same. Loyalty, commitment, and responsibility are important values to ENFJs, even as children. They often settle into organizations that have a values orientation, or they will find a spot in an organization that is centered on values or people’s need. ENFJs make responsible spouses, employees, and community members. Because most ENFJs enjoy public speaking and seem to have a way with words, they are often asked to present the position of the groups to which they belong.

Some ENFJs report that at mid-life they seek situations for themselves where it is possible for them to turn inward. This often takes a structured form such as meditation, journaling, or in some cases even career changes.

In retirement, they are likely to want to settle geographically in an area where they have close personal relationships and/or close personal ties to a specific organization. The relationships and values that are imprtant to the ENFJ become even more so in their retirement. Many ENFJs participate in voluntary service work in retirement.

FYI: all of these things are true about me. I am thoroughly impressed Meyer Briggs… kudos to you!

moving on with the not-so-fluidity of this post, here is a picture that i completely lost my mind looking at this morning:

have a good day everyone!

just being real.

As of late, I have come to the conclusion that my brain works exceptionally TOO WELL!

Signs of this include:

• I think about things like the fact that Americans spend $450,000,000,000 on Christmas and it would only take about $10,000,000,000 to solve the clean water crisis AROUND THE FRICKIN’ WORLD!!
• I continually LIST, in my head or on paper on on several papers or post-its, things I need to do for school or life in general. Somehow, I still manage to list things in my mind such as things I plan to do when the break starts, but Honestly, that list should just be scratched out because I think all i need to do is take a mental vacation.
• I get so lost in thought when I am driving that I often forget where I was going.
• I tend to forget what tv show I am watching because I am thinking about something like ‘oh, i should really listen to this podcast!’ or ‘now, where is my i-pod?’
• I think more than I talk, which is INSANE in and of itself.

Basically, I have a thinking/listing/organizing/fixing DISORDER.

I think it’s ok, but it certainly doesn’t help that I almost cry at any instant because I begin to think of the many sorrows my family/friends are having in their lives. I know that God doesn’t want us to think we can fix everything, because in all actually, WE are not the one’s fixing anything. I just feel like I am in the middle of the ocean all alone trying to scream but the water keeps coming in my mouth like the time I went on a neardeath snorkleing trip in the Dominican…

moving on… frankly, as of late, I am a bit overwhelmed. not necessarily in a BAD WAY. but i am, indeed, overwhelmed.

this comes from several different things, many of which i will refrain from having you have to suffer from thinking about yourself, but some are just not bad at all.  For instance, I am incredibly overwhelmed by the person God has molded me into thus far. I am completely in awe of the things He has done in my life and the mere fact that I am alive, just points to God seeing as i KNOW i should not be here right now.

anyways, that’s all i have for right now….

yeah, i wish i could be there…