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i feel like i have abandoned the internet. I’m sorry i have failed you..
anyways, this is just an update for whoever is reading this. basically, i have been really really REALLY busy lately. like, i just wish sometimes i had time to do the MOUND of laundry in my room. although, i guess i COULD be doing just that right now, however– i have chosen to hang out at the Beaner’s at Byrne and Glendale.. so yeah. serves me right that i have no time to do that…
reasons for being so busy:
1. I am trying to focus really hard on school
2. I am involved in a love revolution called Zakuska on Mondays
3. I lead a bible study so on tuesdays i meet with my peeps about that and then on wednesdays we have our actual study with our lovely girls 
4. thursday is CRU (campus crusade), and NOW (finally) the OFFICE is back on.. so i must choose, or just suffer (i’m not bitter.. lol)
5. because of the aforementioned, i have no time for my friend Tiffany. or even other friends i desire to learn more about and hang with muchly.. 
6. any time i have left over, Jake gets. poor guy. i feel terrible that he is getting my ‘leftover’ time.. but i am trying harder to make more purposeful time with him..
7. on the weekends i basically just run errands or have something going on..lame.
8. oh, did i mention i have class too??
i feel like i’m complaining. but i really am not. i swear. i mean, last week.. yeah i was complaining about it all.. but this week i just felt way better about it. i realized i needed to change my focus and realize that this stuff isn’t for ME, it’s for God, so why stress?? He’s totally way better at stuff than i am, so i trust him.
sometimes i wish i believed things more..
Jake burnt me a Shawn McDonald CD, FINALLY!!!! and let me just tell you, i love this man’s voice. God has blessed him so much and i am SOOO GLAD because his music has really blessed my week! his words in his songs are just so inspiring and truthful to my life right now… yay for Shawn!
this past weekend was the Fall Getaway for CRU. i really didn’t wanna go. i felt that people wouldn’t talk to me (not everyone, just some) and yeah.. i just felt S U P E R lame for going. BUT, it turned out alright. i got to get to know some people i didn’t think i would, and i met some really great girls It was rather great. I can’t say it was as ‘life changing’ as people make it to be, but maybe i wasn’t at a point for change or something??? Who knows. But yeah, it DID help me feel a little better about not belonging here and such. so YAY for Jesus! did i mention i started to get a cold this past week and went to getaway and it got worse?? BUT IT’S FINE because i’m not dead and yeah. that’s ALWAYS a plus. haha now if i could just get some good God time in, then things will be going swimmingly…
now, i am at Beaner’s (as i said before) waiting for Jake to get off. He’s cracking me up because he’s supposed to be training someone, and he really just makes me laugh when he’s being all serious and like “double shot blah blah blah.” i just think it’s great how he knows so much about coffee, honestly– i had no idea it was so particular. lol
needless to say, i’m busy. but willing. i am always willing to have MORE in my schedule. to meet MORE people. and to impact MORE lives for Christ. to hang out with someone MORE. anything. maybe that’s good?? well, i don’t see it changing, so i HOPE it’s good.
oh. p.s. i totally kicked butt on my sign language dialogues.. 99% babaaayyy!!! i LOVE sign.
did i mention how excited i am that Jim and Pam are engaged on the office??? (shut up. i know i’m lame.) yeah, there may be some complications coming, i’m sure of it.. but hey. THEY’RE GREAT..so leave me alone!
keep loving, peeps!
I am just sitting here waiting for Jake to come to my house so i can apply for some jobs and get my car checked out because the check engine light is on.. :/ so i thought i would just jot a little something down…
lately i have just been thinking aboout how much EASIER it is to give it all to God. i mean, SERIOUSLY PEOPLE. it’s beyond the easiest thing.. it’s the most rewarding as well. when we try to control things or just put God as the ‘copilot’ then that doesn’t work out too well…
i’m reading this book thats called “100 cups of water”. it’s basically a little blurb daily or something to think about each day. i haven’t been reading it as much as i wanted because.. i don’t really know. it’s been hard to quit thinking about all the negative crap lately.. and i do not know why. well, LIE. i do. It’s because the enemy still thinks he can knock me down a little further from God.. which is false. but yeah… anyways, i just think (like this little book thinks as well)… what if we were Flight attendants instead of trying to be the pilot.. or even the copilot??
just some food for thought… other note: i miss my dog, family, friends from home, and my hair.
OK, so i am in this science class called Down To Earth. It’s completely ridiculous. i mean, i hate science, but i enjoy THIS class,, what the heck?? Anyways, the other day we were having a lecture and my prof used a few youtube videos to prove a point about Ethics and laws and such… Basically, i am appauled and I want all of you (like 2 people) to be equally as so…
i mean, seriously??? How in the world is that even Environmentally Just?? Those people are completely forced to fight for the removal of these plants.. NOT THE HEADS OF THE CITY or anything.. these CITIZENS must fight. How lame America?? seriously. There are some sweet ways to help them actually at the end.. which i am going to look into.. but yeah. i just was rather shocked.
there was going to be more to this post but i am just a bit upset these past few days so i just think i am going to listen to my music…
love.
